Monday, December 7, 2015

Nothing Merry anymore...


I see people around me excited because Christmas is coming. They are counting the days, they make preparations. Shops and supermarkets are fully decorated since the middle of November and sell thousands of decorations, presents, real and plastic trees, lights and snow shovels. I go in and it feels like Christmas already. Then I return into the real world and see no snow to be shoved, no sign we are in winter. That is not all I see... 

I know what Christmas means to people now. For many it is an obligation to cook a ton of food, buy a truck load of things and stuff themselves to the point of being shown on the news, under headlines like Comatose after Christmas party. For others it is a burden, because it is an obligation  to do all kinds of things and cannot because they do not have the money. And so appear, like mushrooms, the wonderful benefactors that visit some poor family with a few presents twice a year then forget all about it until the next Christmas. Because those poor do not need stuff during the rest of the year. Only now, so these “angels” are praised  and sometimes even appear on TV.  

I used to love Christmas. I still love it, I guess, but on my own terms. I don’t like the materialistic part of the holiday. It has absolutely nothing to do with the actual holiday. I am not a religious person but I think people should be reminded of the true significance of the day. So many have forgotten.  When I was little I used to go carolling.  It was a duty. We were spreading the word that Baby Jesus was born and the people I sang for would give us treats – a small sum of money and/or homemade cakes and cookies. It was a tradition. We always enjoyed receiving cakes because every housewife had her own recipes and even if we would get the same type of cake from different houses, none was the same. It was fun. It was beautiful.

In our orthodox culture, the priest from each church visits all his parishioners in the few days before Christmas. He says a prayer and talks a little with everyone. His arrival is announced by a group of boys  that must shout  something that sounds like NEEE-HO-HO from the top of their lungs.  When they reach each house, the owner usually gives them all walnuts and asks how long until the priest arrives at that house. Sounds pretty nice, doesn’t it? Well, in recent years, the group of boys no longer shouts the NEEE-HO-HO calling because they prefer to swear and curse or play gipsy music on their phones. They enter our homes and, without a word, expect to receive the walnuts. They fight for them because walnuts are expensive. Sometimes, the priest comes and leaves and the boys are nowhere in sight, coming minutes or hours afterwards. Still expecting to be served.

In our country, we have three times when kids go carolling – on Christmas Eve, on New Year’s Eve and in the morning of the 1st of January. That is the tradition, that is what we do.  It was a beautiful tradition a few many years ago. It meant something to people. Not just for the material gain, for the spirit too. For the memories of wandering the village from house to house, exploring parts of  it we did not go to during the year.  It was fun indeed, and if we would also be paid for it, all the better. The tradition did not die. It is true that fewer gates are open for carollers now but there will always be people who, for better for worse, will let you in. I was among those people. I would buy a large box of sweets, find some apples form the garden, some money for the favorite kids and wait for them to come. I was happy to receive them, to listen to various carols, to see the smiles on their faces when I gave them a treat. In theory, anyway. Because most of them look at you sideways when you do not give them money for the same carol you hear a million times in an afternoon, many of them not even bothering to learn the lyrics right or at least finish the song.  That is why I have decided not to open my gate this year. Not for ungrateful little materialistic kids. It is not worth it. I am truly sorry for the few kids that still hold the spirit of the holiday in them and that deserve better, but it is a cruel world out there and we must deal with it the best we can. I will decorate the tree and the house but I will not be part of this game anymore. It is simply not worth the trouble.

I want, for once, to have peaceful winter holidays. I don’t think I am asking for too much. I spend enough time as it is with those children at school. I need a break from it all. I know, being a teacher, and living in the same village as they sort of implies that I have to let them in. Well, not really. I do not mind being the mean lady who would not facilitate the perversion of a once beautiful holiday season.  It is bad enough there is no snow and we are very likely to have another muddy Christmas.

This is another issue I have. Winter ain’t what it used to be. Not by a longshot. There used to be snow from the end of November to the end of February and sometimes the beginning of March. A normal winter for temperate regions of the globe. Now, we have either rain  and mud for most of December, or plain cold all the way through the winter, freezing everything without the protection of the snow coat. One year, we had temperatures up to 20 degrees Celsius in January, the trees were about to bloom, then followed two weeks of blizzards and -20 degrees that killed almost everything in their way. It was a miracle that the trees survived at all, let alone have many flowers and produce fruit. Many of my favorite rose bushes died that year.

Everything is wrong these days and we must adapt accordingly. If the world is bad, you needn’t be mean back. You just have to find a way to live in it without hurting anyone or allowing anyone to hurt you.  I discovered the hard way that I do not have to be everyone’s friend. It is exhausting and totally unfulfilling. But if you can find a few people that are worth your time, now and then, then you are a happy person. If you can’t find people like that, do not lose hope, they may still show up one day, but in the meantime try to be happy anyway. There are many things in this life that can make one happy.

In any case, we may think we are evolving towards a better future but it is not true. All this evolution has turned the world into one big mess and us into materialistic slobs. I am sorry for anyone who believes otherwise. Though, the ignorant have much happier lives than the ones who see the world for what it really is.
On this happy note, all I can say is HAPPY HOLYDAYS EVERYONE!!!
(Because there should always be hope...)

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