Silence is golden

 

I don’t get why some people feel the need  to talk. I mean, they are afraid to allow a single second of their lives without talking about something or the other. I know people who can talk for hours, about various things, about the same thing over and over. It doesn’t matter what about. The important fact is that they do not shut up. As is they are afraid of silence.  

I don’t think silence is anything bad. On the contrary. I could live for days without talking to anyone. I would just mind my business in peace and I will be okay at the end of the day. Or week. Or month. It doesn't mean I am upset with someone if I don’t talk when they talk to me. It only means I don’t feel like talking.

My mom always gets mad at me when she wants me to tell her how my day was, for example, and I mumble something then go do something else. It doesn't matter if it was a good day or a bad one, if you do not feel like talking there is nothing anyone can do to make you talk. Mom is one of those people who can talk for hours.

It happens, on lucky days, to be able to hide away from the world, working in the garden or just taking a walk up the hills, when the only time I would speak is meeting one of my cats or the ducks. Or just speaking to a plant I especially like. A word or two. I know how it sounds. Lonely. Pathetic. Stupid, maybe? Don’t think so. I am well aware they will not answer and me talking to them means nothing else but giving my thought a voice. For one moment. Then back to silence. To listening to the world around you while your brain is a stormy sea, each wave a thought, bigger and stronger with every second you spend on each of them.

There are two types of silence for me. One, if you’re lucky enough to ever get to that stage, is when your mind is clear and you can just enjoy being. The other is when you want to be alone with your thoughts, when you need to think things through and do some cleaning in your head. There’s a lot of dust piling up during a day.

Of course I like taking to people. Certain people. There are times when you can ask me anything and I will talk and talk without restriction. For about half an hour or so. Unless I really , really enjoy the other person’s company. However, I find more pleasure in listening to other people and if I have an opinion I might speak out, I might also keep it to myself. Because I value my silence more.

There is so little peace in our lives nowadays.